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The memory floated into my consciousness unexpectedly.
It was my final year of college, and I was finishing my Bachelor of Fine Arts degree. I stood beside my section of metal shelving in the ceramics studio, surrounded by wet clay, fresh off the wheel, spun pots leather-hard, and a coating of gray dust all around. My professor approached me and offered me a job.
My wife runs the ceramics department at the Art Center in Ann Arbor, he said. You can work for her. I’d be happy to put in a good word.
The details are fuzzy from there. I cannot remember if it was a full-time job, a summer job, or even an internship that he offered. What I remember is that I turned him down.
I didn’t even consider accepting.
By then, I was engaged to be married. Plans for our wedding and life together would have been in full swing. A myriad of details would have made accepting the ceramics position difficult. Impractical. Out of the question.
As this memory surfaced, a deep sadness and regret rose with it.
The person I was back then didn’t think enough of herself to even consider a position that would have made her come alive, one that she’d sacrifice greatly to accept today. A dream lost.
But Jesus sees the nets you’ve left. Jesus sees how you’ve washed them clean and dragged your boat back to the shore. He feels the ache inside that comes from having no catch. He knows your soul has grown hungry. He sees you are too tired to go back out. –Bonnie Gray
Shortly after this memory surfaced, I began reading Bonnie Gray’s Finding Spiritual Whitespace: Awakening Your Soul to Rest. When I read the chapter from which the quote above is taken, I immediately thought of the ceramics job. Bonnie describes the ways in which Jesus invites new dreams and and adventures through the practice of spiritual whitespace.
She describes the process of of casting off who we aren’t and discovering who we are through an intimate communion with Jesus, a bringing of our raw, vulnerable selves to Him as we are:
Jesus wants me to trust him with the me who surfaces when I am quiet, when I am alone….God is showing me he can transform my loneliest and messiest moments into the most beautiful and intimate experiences with him.
Finding Spiritual Whitespace is memoir-driven. Bonnie shares deeply and vulnerably of heart-breaking memories from her childhood that resurfaced for her as an adult in the form of PTSD. God led her on a journey of healing through spiritual whitespace–soul rest, a new way of living in intimate communion with Him. Her book is a living invitation to all to embark on that journey to transform the wounded part of themselves through this holy rest.
This book, this journey, is powerful and brave. Readers will want to savor her words, reflecting on their own experiences. At the same time, they will not want to set the book down as they ache to know what comes next on each step of Bonnie’s journey.
The prompts, questions, and ideas at the end of each chapter act as a guidebook for entering your own spiritual whitespace, awakening your soul to rest, uncovering your authentic self, healing your wounds, and growing in communion with Jesus.
Here is the trailer for Finding Spiritual Whitespace:
Bonnie Gray is the writer behind Faith Barista.com who wrote a book about her inspiring, heart-breaking journey to find rest, which garnered Publisher’s Weekly starred review. I’m taking the journey to find rest through this guidebook and invite you to read it too. You can get a copy HERE.
I received a copy of this book in exchange for participating in the book launch team, including a review of the book. However, all opinions expressed here are my own.
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