*On Thursdays at Faith Barista, Bonnie Gray serves up a writing prompt and invites bloggers to join her in writing on a specific topic. Today’s prompt is simply: TRUST.*
*This post is also a continuation of my blogging through my God-sized dream. For previous posts in the dream series, please see the titles under “God-Sized Dreaming” in the sidebar at the right.*
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I write my posts in my head.
Once I know the topic, and an angle grabs my attention, most of the work is done before I log in.
With a post due on Tuesday morning, my thoughts were in overdrive as I prepared to write about fear. Simultaneously, I pondered whether or not to participate in Bonnie Gray’s Thursday writing prompt on trust. (Not an emotionally charged word at all…)
As my chronology of thoughts on fear progressed, I stopped hard at this idea, the one with which I would end Tuesday’s post:
If the Lord places a dream on my heart, then I determine to trust Him with it. He will be my strength, my shield, my helper. And I trust Him to use His body to carry this out.
I have often misconstrued trusting God as a sort of mega-willpower to surrender and eschew anxiety. But He’s been teaching me to do it in His strength and not my own. And that He gave us His body for a reason. He didn’t intend for us to do this life alone.
Trusting Him is believing that He will give me the grace and resources I need. He will reach out with His love through others.
I paused to check my evidence on this.
And I was humbled. Awed at the love He wraps around my heart through the women in my life.
Which prompted me to ponder and pray over my friendships. To gather some courage to pose a question among my dreamer friends about the nature of friendships, support, and disappointment–what’s good, what’s great, and what’s best. What should you expect, and what’s settling?
Who is Jesus to me, and who, well, isn’t?
And then there is Delonna.
A month ago, Delonna asked for help with her dream.
All I had to do was provide her with photos, color suggestions, and ideas of my loved ones’ favorite things, plus feedback.
And she would send me a quilt.
I think I got the winning end of that deal.
Wanting to respond in a timely manner, I quickly debated over which photos to send her. Should this be an item I end up keeping or giving as a gift?
With some guilt, I settled on keeping it and sending her photos of some of my favorite people, the ones who touch me way deep down. The ones who get me. The ones who are Jesus to me.
And the ones of whom I have a photo. (Seriously, girls, if your face is not in this post, we need a photo shoot!)
Would you believe that the quilt arrived in the mail yesterday?
Yesterday: the day I seriously evaluated my friendships.
Yesterday: the day I asked for input on friendships.
Yesterday: the day that the smiling faces of my loves arrived at my home.
So, do I trust Him?
Yes. Yes, I do.
And you? How do you define trust? What helps you to trust? Let’s chat!