God-Sized Dreaming! {and my one word 2013}

God-Sized Dreaming! {and my one word 2013}

That assault of near-panic, paralyzing anxiety that results whenever I must deal with anything related to him?

I don’t want that.

That guilt and shame of saying yes, or nearly saying yes, to a request when I know I need to say “no” for my emotional health?

I don’t want that.

That anger, bitterness, and invisibility that clouds me over when his name is mentioned, as though he is a normal person who didn’t shatter me?

I don’t want that.

That peace that comes with resting secure in the safety of His loving arms?

I want that.

That empowering healing that results from taking ownership and responsibility for my life?

I want that.

That mercy that issues from understanding that he was broken and wounded too, and that he wounded me from generation upon generation of woundedness?

I want that.

And so.

I’ve decided.

It’s time for change. For healing.

The Lord has whispered to me that it’s time to release the hold that the trauma of my childhood sexual abuse has on me.

I know that’s heavy.

But I also know that God’s light shines brightest in dark places.

It’s my God-sized dream.

I think I’m ready to go there.

My One Word for 2013:

You will see it there on my sidebar, too–under the knitted social media icons: Freedom! (Thank you, Melanie from Only a Breath, for the button!) It will stay there all year to remind me. 365 days to more freedom.

Will you remind me too?

I’m working alongside 99 other courageous women with God-sized dreams. Together we are teaming with Holley Gerth on a dream of hers: the release and promotion of her book that will show you how to do the same:


God-Sized Dreams Cover

Look for it in March. Or preorder on Amazon.

Can’t wait that long? This is another amazing resource that Holley just released. I’m using it to jump start my God-sized dream. Her ebook:

Do What You Can Plan by Holley Gerth copy

Do you have God-sized dream? It doesn’t mean huge. God-sized=what God wants to do in your life right now.

What is He nudging you to do? What has He given you a passion for?

I’d love to be your cheerleader.

We’ll be devoting some space here over the next 6 months to the dreaming…

Join me?

I can’t wait!

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Thrilled to be linking with:

God-Sized Dreams

A Life Surrendered: Dream Again



  1. Woohoo! I can’t at all believe how brave this post is! Praise Him for helping you seek freedom and forgiveness. I can’t wait to see how He heals.
    Melissa Ann recently posted..A Free Beginner Photography ClassMy Profile

  2. You have such an amazing blog! So blessed by your writing!
    Ashley Ditto recently posted..Looking Up.My Profile

    • Ashley, thank you for your kind words and for stopping by to read and share your thoughts! I’m so glad you were blessed.

  3. Mandy,
    What a brave leap of faith, sister! I love your word! Mine was broken, and before anyone gets out the Kleenex, I’ve discovered that broken is beautiful. Aren’t you excited to be where we are? To God be the Glory…I can’t wait to see where this journey takes us!
    Love it…work your freedom, girl!
    Chelle recently posted..My OneWord is…My Profile

    • Broken IS beautiful! In her keynote at Allume, Ann Voskamp talked all about Jesus shining light into our broken places. It was amazing. I was blessed to speak with her for a few minutes, and she told me to write from my broken places:) Thank you for reading, Chelle! I AM so excited be where we are. We are so blessed to be on this journey. To God be the glory.

  4. Love your word and your heart. I’m excited to see where God takes your dream this year.
    Jennifer recently posted..Eating Healthier: A Don’t-Miss Deal on Healthy Snacks (Delivered!)My Profile

  5. Mandy, this is a great post!! I think my one word for the last 20 years has been freedom!! And it’s been a long, strange trip. I want to talk to you more, we have a lot to cover!! Wanna Skype sometime? I’m also emailing you something.
    Tammy Perlmutter recently posted..Shine for the HurtingMy Profile

  6. Oh, sweet Mandy! How I love this- everything about it! Can’t wait to see what God accomplishes in and through you this year. May you lean into Him and be blessed by the Freedom He so generously desires to pour out on you.
    I have some God- sized dreams- I’m sure that I will share them with you down the road. So much love dear sister!!!
    Becky Daye recently posted..5 Ways to Stay Organized…My Profile

  7. I’m so thankful that God allowed our paths to cross :)
    And for our #friendship
    Beautiful post sweet friend.
    Kara @ The Chuppies recently posted..Possibilities…My Profile

  8. Woohoo! He will set you free indeed! So excited about what God is going to do in and through you this year!
    Becky Roode recently posted..on my kneesMy Profile

  9. I celebrate your willingness to trust Him to deliver you from the burden I understand all too well. Praying with you, believing He has so much more in store for you, thanking Him in advance for the freedom you will experience, Mandy!
    Diana Denis recently posted..ONE WORD…KNOWMy Profile

    • What beautiful words you have left here for me, Diana. Thank you for your prayer and thanksgiving! Just, thank you.

  10. So very excited for your courageous dream for 2013. You are already free, you just have to feel it, believe it! Beside you, cheering you on as you embark on this journey of healing.

    Sincerely, your new friend and fellow survivor,
    Christy @ A Heartening Life
    Christy recently posted..Making Connecting a Priority, Pt 2My Profile

    • Christy, I don’t think you know what a blessing you are to me. God placed you in my path at this time for a reason. I am so thankful for you! I love what you’ve written for me here: already free… Thank you for cheering me on! Blessings to you!!!

  11. I’m so proud of you! I know this was not easy to put online, but you did it. You took one of the first steps in finding freedom! I am so excited to see what God does in this area of your life. Writing about abuse is a terrifying and awesome journey!

  12. Mandy, all that comes to mind is “You Go Girl!”. I am so excited for you for this year. I pray you find freedom on places and ways you’ve not even considered. I know this had to be so difficult to write. You are an amazing example of courage and truth.

  13. You go girl … Courage in transparency just plain rocks!

  14. oh girl, that could have been my word too! Maybe not freedom in the way you mean, but freedom in my walk with God and stop trying so hard to earn something that’s been given to me freely.
    Can’t wait to see how all of our dreams unfold over the next few months, should be an exciting ride!

    • Oh, yes! I hear you on that kind of freedom, too. Praising Him for the freedom He’s given you! Thank you for stopping in here, Alecia. I am thrilled for this dream journey we’re on!

  15. So proud of you for this, my friend, and thrilled to be part of this God-Sized Dream journey with you! I can’t wait to see what He’s going to do through you! Blessings. :)
    Mel recently posted..2013: What to ReadMy Profile

    • Mel, thank you: for stopping in here and for your support! Thrilled is a great word for this journey together:)

  16. I have no words. I’m just too proud of you for chasing after Him in this way! Just…thank you, friend. Thank you for allowing Him to work through you. it blesses all of us more than you know!

    Nikki recently posted..I Wanna Live Like That {Radiate}My Profile

    • I have no words…And yet, I will try: thank you for being mycheerleader, my supporter, my pointer-back-to-Jesus. Thanks for radiating;) {{{HUGS}}} back!

  17. love it Mandy…happy to be on the journey with you!!
    Lani recently posted..of reVolutions, reSolutions and Solutions and defining such thingsMy Profile

  18. Yea! Dreams – big or small can be scarey. THANK YOU for being courageous. YOU Go Girl! Kinda like “Spiritual Amway” – never know how that pyramid of touch will work in each of the “down-lines.” Ditto on on Nikki’s comment. :-)

    • Oh, Denise, thank you! What a blessing your words are to me! I hadn’t thought of it in that way, but I’m glad my words have a trickle down effect:) Praise God for the grace to hear Him:) Thanks for clicking over here to read.

  19. Mandy-
    Wow.. thank you soo much for sharing your God sized dreams with us. W/How awesome. I cannot wait to see what freedom God brings to you!

  20. Wow.Wonderful decision&dream!May God bless you!
    I want to leave you this verse from the Bible:
    I will make the lips to praise. Peace, peace to him who is far and to him who is near,” says the Lord, “and I will heal him.” Isaiah 57:19
    Moments of Words recently posted..God-sized Dream…My Profile

  21. Wow! Just Wow! You are so brave. And courageous. And such a blessing my friend!
    Mary recently posted..Is this my epiphany?My Profile

  22. Praying a dream come true for you this year, Mandy! Your transparency is inspiring.

    Brenda recently posted..CourageMy Profile

  23. I am so excited we are dream teaming together!!! God has begun a work in us and I’m confident He’ll complete it fully.
    Blessings, sweet friend…
    Stefanie Brown recently posted..Immeasurably More ~ Living the God-Sized Dream…My Profile

  24. You write well, Mandy!

    I’m excited to see your journey to increased freedom unfold this year. I imagine there will be worthwhile pain involved, but the end result will be precious.
    Sheryl recently posted..One Word 2013My Profile

    • Thank you, Sheryl! I agree: worthwhile pain, but oh! the end result–I so look forward to that. Thank you for reading and sharing your thoughts!

  25. Wow Mandy that truly is a much needed healing and a huge step towards freedom. I pray that God will meet you in those hurting and wounded places and fill you with confidence to walk through to the other side in His triumph. I never thought to connect my word to my God-sized Dream. I am also reading Holly’s newsletter and the 21 day book. We are both moving along together on the same path. May it bring us both to wonderful places of healing and wholeness and His new purpose for our lives.
    Paula McLane Jennings recently posted..ONE WORD 365My Profile

    • What a joy to journey with you! Wholeness and His new purposes–those sounds wonderful. I am praying the same for you as you journey. Thank you for your prayer, kind words, and sharing your thoughts here, Paula. Holley’s writing has always resonated with me. I’m so grateful for gift for words and encouragement.

  26. Oh, wow! You daring to bring what’s in darkness into light loosens quickly any hold the darkness may have on you and surely you will walk in all the freedom Christ came to give you! Wow! You are so brave! So very courageous! I am so glad you linked-up :)
    Michele-Lyn recently posted..GIVEAWAY and LINK-UP [Dream Again Day 31]My Profile

    • Thank you for the invitation to link up and your kind, encouraging words, my friend. It has taken quite a long time for me to realize the truth of what you’ve written: bringing what’s in the dark into the light=freedom:) He’s given me a taste and how much the journey will be worth it!

  27. I join you in praying for this freedom in Christ that is yours as a beloved child of the Most High God. May you abide in His love…hugs my sister!
    arcelia recently posted..Ambition: A Holy OneMy Profile

    • Arcelia, just…thank you. I cherish these prayers and your words of encouragement. Thanks for reading and sharing!

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